Nuvigil

I took a half tab of Nuvigil

So I wouldn't fall asleep and die on my drive home

But now I'm wired

Legally wired out of my fucking gourd

And I want it to stop

I want to feel tired and normal

Hell, I've always wanted to feel normal

Even though the medical community

Has deemed me eligible for sanctioned drugging

And even though they want me to take this shit daily

It's been three months since my last use

And now I remember why I've avoided it

Yeah, this nutrient sucks. I know.

And maybe it just tells you straight up what's happening

Which makes for a bland analytic

But I have nothing else to give you

Other than a glimpse into my discomfort

And yeah, I could explain my sleep disorder

But that wouldn't change my current experience

Nor would it change my decision to stay alive on my drive home

But it may assuage my self judgment

By fishing for platitudes

Using a barbed #12 treble hook

Loaded with Pautskes Balls of Fire and a touch of Zekes

Use drugs on fish! You are what you eat!